Day 10

It's exactly 10 days since you've left & thankfully, you'll be home tomorrow :) I can't wait to start talking your head off rather than blogging everything. You know how talkative I can be, all this blogging isn't enough! There's just so much to tell you.

Today I went to the bank to make a deposit (I'm so bad about making late deposits!). I hate the Bank Atlantic near the new house. A transaction that normally takes 5 minutes at my 'old' bank took over 30 minutes this morning. I wasn't too pleased.

I also filed paperworks for the address change too. It's such a hassle changing all your address. So far, I've done so for my credit card, school, bank & the mail forwarding thing with the postal service. Next shall be going to the actual DMV & getting it change on my driver license too. Mom & Milan got theirs done today, they said it was quite a hassle. I'm dragging you to my appointment with me when that does happen :) please & thank you!

After all the hassle @ the bank, I picked up Vicky & we went to the Galleria. I returned the other pair of earrings that I got for mom (the ones she didn't want because they were too small). I contemplated all night whether I should return them or not because I'm quite fond of them. Unfortunately, I came to the realization that I shouldn't be spending that kind of money right now so I took it back.

Then we stopped @ Aldo & I fell in love with these black platform peeptoes. Ahh, they were on sale. They're not cheap but they're pretty nice. I like them A LOT. I bought them but then hours later.. I started having 2nd thoughts. You already know!

We also stopped at Delias too. I tried on a pair of jeans so I got $10 off any purchase. I also had $20 off couple for having their 'frequent shopper' card. With the $30 in savings, I purchased a pair of dark washed denim & this navy green button up. The sales girl happened to be the manager of the store was even nice enough to give Victoria an extra $10 coupon. Victoria picked out 3 pairs of socks & I only paid $2 for them. It was unbelievable. That's cheaper than Walmart! Lol

I came home & tried on my whole new outfit. I love it to pieces but then I took a good look at my closet. I realized I didn't really neeeeed these things, do I ever? Does that ever stop me from buying? NO! But I do feel like I have a lot of jeans already.. so I might have to take the pair of jeans back. Ahhh, I hate being so indecisive when it comes to shopping. I wish I could just be like those people that just buys things & forget about it. Unfortunately, I'm too conscious of a shopper. I love to shop but I also love to save. AHHH! WHAT TO DO?

Come home already so I can model out my new shoes for you!

Speaking of coming home, I don't even know what time you're coming home tomorrow. I feel like such a bad girlfriend! Tsk tsk!

Sidenote: I watched a cute movie tonight, I think you might like it! Movie night?

Day 9

Hiiii loverboy.

This morning mom tried to convince me to join her & Milan at church. I said, 'no way Jose!' and rolled back to sleep. I got to sleep till about 10am, which was so nice! Then I did mine & Victoria's laundry, cleaned up my room quite a bit, took a shower & cleaned up the bathroom.


We went to TeeJay for sushi. Ahhh, soo so so happy! This place always pleases me. They know what they're doing & they do it right every time. Every time I'm here, I'm constantly finding a new 'favorite' & I love that. You still have to take me here for lunch one of these days so I can broadening your sushi horizon. *pats your head

Today, I fell in love with the Atkins Roll & here's what it looks like. It was super hard to capture the magnificent colors due to the poor lightning inside the restaurant, but you get the point. I really really love this dish. I def. have to recommend this to my dad, he would love it. It's just like 4 different raw fish wrapped together by a thin layer of rice paper. No rice, no cream cheese filling, no cucumber.. none of that 'fluff'. Just straight up RAW FISH goodness & natural flavor. UGH, the bomb diggity! Just talking about it right now is making my mouth waterrrr!

Me, mom & Victoria went to Ikea to returned some stuffs. Then we went to the farmers market to pick up lots of goodies to cook dinner. We got rained on, big timeeee!

The remainder of the evening was pretty laid back. I took Victoria out to run some errands so Milan & mom could get some quiet time. Then, I helped mom cook dinner. We made wonton soup because I love having soup on rainy days. (Side note: it's been pretty rainy here the last couple of days. I believe it's some sort of tropical storm.)

Here's just a few photos I snapped of myself throughout the day

look at how green everything is in the background, our plants LOVES the rain!

icky wet hair :(
Milan said I look a lot like my mom in this picture. WTF?

waving hi to you in colombia :)

goofing off in the car with victoria

Day 7

Sorry I didn't write last night. I came home from an extremely busy night of work & just crashed. I was exhausted & went straight to bed.

So yesterday, I had to wake up at 7am to be at the beach by 8am for the baptism.
There was hundreds of people there, it was wild. It was like one giant hippie fest except they were all holding bibles & singing Jesus-loving-songs. Everybody sat around in big groups & sang Christian songs. Then they all said their prayers & got into the water to get baptized. I got to hear the whole story about why 'it's important to get baptized' from the pastor. Interesting biblical reference & meaning behind physically going into the water & all.When it was mom's turn, we all came in with her & she talked about her calling with God to the pastor. Then she said a prayer outloud while we all held hands. (I was trying so hard not to burst out laughing at this point!) Then the pastor took her further out into the water & dunk her in.Then she came up & it was done.

Afterward, we all went out for breakfast @ the Village Grille. It's local restaurant that's right across the street fr. my work. I had to rush through breakfast so I can get to work on time. Made it to work with just a few minutes to spare :) I'm such a G like that!

Smoked Salmon Platter - Mom & Milan shared this

Vicky's breakfast

And mine! :)

Work was relatively slow during the day. I had a few tables & spent most of the time reading through my magazines. I was hoping night time would be better so I can make some money. 6pm came around & it was absolutely DEAD in the restaurant. I'm starting to worry. Then a big storm came & rained like there's no tomorrow. I'm thinking to myself, oh crap.. there goes every chance of making any $$ tonight. But to my surprise, people started pouring in even with the crazy weather outside. The whole restaurant was packed for the rest of the evening. I did over $1200 in sales last night. Go me! I even got to leave 30 minutes early because I tripled Kim's sales that night. I just wanted to go home & get some rest. She can stay a little later & take whatever tables remaining.

With that being said, I went home & crawled into bed. I wanted to write you but I had no energy left in my little body.

Day 6

Good evening, or shall I say good morning? It's a little after midnight & I'm sitting here eating dinner. I didn't get to eat at work so I'm dying fr. starvation! You're probably thinking 'it must have been really busy at work tonight that she didn't get to eat.' NOPE! It was so slow & I barely made enough money to fill up my gas tank.

Other than that, today was my final exam for stats. I was so freaked out but thankfully.. I managed to pass. My teacher graded our exams immediately & grades are already posted on Blackboard. According to my calculation, I should have a 97 in the class. I'll keep checking to see if that is the grade I'll get when the final grades are posted onto the FAU site. *keeping those fingers crossed*

After my exam, I rushed home to pick up Victoria. The 2 of us went to the Galleria to purchase those earrings for Mom. I bought her the one that she lost as well as another pair that was just too beautiful for words. Those 2 pairs were pretty pricey but I didn't care, it's important to her so whatever. I bought them both!

We even stopped at the Sweeter Days cupcake booth @ the mall to pick up 2 cupcakes (1 for mom & the other for Milan).

I brought the cupcakes & the earrings to the shop for her. She ended up loving the 2nd pair that I bought rather than the replacement pair of her lost earring. Whatever makes her happy, so be it.

Now I have to take the other pair of earring back to return. I kinda want to keep them though. They're just little tiny studs, nothing fancy. Simple, but nice. I like that. ALOT! I've always been into over the top jewelry & things. I like a lot of costume jewelry & shiny things. But this one was just .. nice.

I'll probably return them. I can't afford to be buying myself diamond earrings right now. Lol, perhaps in the future.. I'd like to invest in a pair. That would be nice huh? Maybe I'll add it to my Christmas/birthday wishlist! Yeah, that's it.

I should get to bed now. I have to be up in a few hours for mom's baptize ceremony thing. That should be interesting. I'll write about that tomorrow. Until then.. sweet dreams Cris. I love you & miss you. Hope your day was a lot more exciting than mine!

Day 5

After that miserable night, I woke up this morning looking like death. No, I'm not being dramatic either. I felt horrid & I looked like it too. That's what you get for crying myself to sleep last night, no bueno.

But yeah..
I couldn't even drag myself out of bed to eat, let alone study like I should. I did managed to force myself to review a little bit here & there. Unfortunately, I passed out in the mist of doing so & slept like a baby. I woke up just in time for work. Thank goodness.

Right before I left for work, Milan presented me with a new key to our new home (with new locks!). I knew I had to run back upstairs & take a picture to show you! He even got a green hook for the key because he knew it was my favorite color. I've gotta give Milan some props. He certainly tries very hard to make the best living situation for us all. Even with all the unspoken tension betw/ me & mom right now, he still managed to make a few jokes & make it a little bit less uncomfortable for us all. Oh yeah, she's giving me the 'silent treatment' & it's not like I care anyways. Today, mom even told Victoria that fr. now on Victoria is not allow to go anywhere with me b/c mom is mad at me. Even Victoria knew how retarded that was! If she's mad at me, be mad. Why punish Victoria & not allow her to even hang out with me just because mom is mad at me? It's so stupid. Whatever, enough of that crap.

I've already got a plan to deal with mother's tantrum. I'll kill her with kindness. I refuse to let her get the best of me. It's gone far enough.

Work was so dead tonight. I barely made $50 bucks. Failure. To make matters worse, they've asked that I give up some of my hours for Rick.

*insert pissed off face here*

Supposedly, the management feels like I've been making too much money at their establishment so it's only fair that I give up some hours for the new guy. Wow, I was speechless. The nerves they had to even ask me. My first reaction was, 'What about Kim? She works more hours than I do. Why isn't she giving up her hours?" They replied saying that they already spoke to her. She refused to give up any hours because since her accident .. she really needs the money. And Jose only works 2 days a week so they can't ask him to give up any of his hours either. So it's down to me.

*insert even more pissed off face here*

WTF! So Kim needs the money but I don't? It's not my fault she went out, messed up her arm & got thrown out of her apartment. That's not my problem. We all need the money, duh.. that's why we work. If I didn't need the money, why would I even bother coming to this hell hole? Psh, you've gotta be kidding me.

I swallowed my pride & told them to Rick can have my tuesday double shift. I'm thinking to myself, school starts in 3 weeks .. by then, I can't work tuesday anyways b/c we go to school tuesday & thursday. I'll lose out on 11 hours from my paycheck, which I'm not too thrilled about but whatever.. I don't have a choice anyways.

Time to look for a different job & then figure out if I should juggle 2 jobs and school.. or if the new job goes well, I'll quit this one.

Sorry for totally venting out on this entry. This is supposed to be me telling you about my day, not sitting here complaining about such trivial things in my life :( it's not like you're not used to these things anyways.

I'd rather be in Colombia visiting relatives than be here any day. Not to mention, my final exam for stats is tomorrow. I'm worried. I doubt I'll be able to get any sleep tonight. I'm not confident in myself at all & that's not a good sign. I told myself to get to bed early & I'm sitting here blogging away. This is not good at all. Ahh, these are the times where I need you here to calm my nerves down :/

Wish me luck?

Day 4

I'm so mad. I'm sitting here huffing and puffing.. trying to hold myself together before I burst into tears. I absolutely hate being accused of something I didn't do, I know you feel the same & can possibly relate.

So remember a couple nights ago when I was so bored out of my mind, I volunteered myself to help mother organize her closet & jewelries? Well today, after dinner .. the whole family was in the master bedroom just hanging out & deciding when we wanted to go to dairy queen for ice-cream. Typical family stuffs. Out of nowhere, my mother freaked out about some missing pair of earrings. Apparently she had this pair of diamond studs that she loves very dearly & one of the earring went missing a few weeks ago. During the process of the move, Victoria found the missing earring in Dolce's cage & my mom couldn't be any happier. Mom wrapped the missing earring in a little tissue paper & stuffed it into a ziplock bag.

Now supposedly mom claims that I must have thrown the 'tissue' ball away in the garbage while I was organizing her stuffs.

This is not true.

1. I would never throw away anything from her room. I know better than to get myself involved with that crap.
2. Helping her organize her stuffs is more like her dictating for me to do specific things "hang this shirt!" .. "put these sweaters away." It's not like I was freely doing my own thing. Therefore, she was supervising over everything. If so, she needs to be responsible for her 'tissue ball'/earring.
   
3. HOW THE HELL was I supposed to know that her precious earring was in there? Anybody could have thrown that tissue ball away. And who stores their earrings in tissues paper anyways?
4. This is not the first time something like this happened. Many years ago, she took all of her diamonds & gold .. wrapped it in tissue paper & put it away. While cleaning the house, my dad thought it was trash & got rid of it. Needless to say, she was pissed for weeks. Dad spent many months & years making up to her.

Seeing this situation, Milan offered to go through the trash can with me. Can you believe that? Me & Milan .. outside our driveway .. going through the darn trash.. looking through tissue papers for this woman. We looked through everything (even bathroom trash!) and couldn't find it.

Mom came outside & freaked out some more. She wanted to look through all the trash AGAIN so we let her. Nothing was found! She angrily shove the trashcan outside on the curb & then demanded that I re-payed her for those earrings at Christmas time. She insisted on telling me that they were "very expensive, white gold, diamond studs" and that she wouldn't settle for anything less. Then she continued into telling Milan what bratty children we (me + Victoria) are because we always bring her all kinds of sadness like today's event.

Can you believe the nerve of this woman? It's truly not my fault that one missing earring is nowhere to be found. WTF? People probably thinks I'm over exaggerating when I tell them that in my household, everything is always MY fault. But it's so true! See tonight's dramatic episode? Something so out of my control.. yet somehow became my fault in the end. She just needs something to point the fingers to & blame it on.


I'm really pissed off. I just called the Swarovsky Crystal Store @ the Galleria. I believe I've found the same exact pair of earrings she lost. I'll go there in the morning & purchase them. That's what she wants? I'll give them to her. It's just material things. If it's more important to her than my feelings than so be it. If it's that important to her, then I'll give them to her. I know you're probably thinking that I shouldn't even do that. She doesn't deserve it and I shouldn't be spending my money on this bullcrap. I know this sounds so crazy but it's just something I have to do..


After the eventful day that I've had (jeanne's car had a flat tire so I had to drive them around town to get somebody to change their tire, then the spare tire had no air so then we had to go find a gas station to put air into it) this is the last thing I need. Honestly. I don't deserve to be treated like this. I'm her daughter, not her house servant. Even if I was her servant and she accused me of stealing or throwing away her stuffs, I'd rather quit than to be accused of something I didn't do. Unfortunately, I can't quit being her daughter.

I need to get away from this place. I've been trying so hard to hold my tongue, swallow my pride & do whatever it takes to keep this family together. In some case, even tried to extend my arm out to make Milan feel more apart of our family. Yet, it all seems so wasted. She's never going to appreciate me for who I am, less alone the things I do for her.

Wish you could be here with me. We can just drive away, go off to the beach & take a walk. You're the only voice I can bare to hear right now. Everybody else is just annoying and inconsiderate.

I'm going to crawl in bed now. It's barely 9pm here but I just want to be alone. You understand, don't you? I miss you Cristian. This bed is cold without you.

Day 3

Milan woke us up this morning with terrible news. There's been a series of break ins & robberies in the neighborhood. It's been all over the newspaper. Apparently last night, Milan forgot to lock his car doors & someone broke into his car. They stole all his stuffs as well as a spare key to the house.

I still don't even have a key to the darn house yet, you know? Yet, there was a spare key just sitting there in his car the whole time. I'm kinda pissed about that.

Sorry I digress. The point is, with the key being stolen... it leaves possibilities of those robbers coming back & breaking into our house. I'm really scared. I couldn't stop thinking about it all day at work today. I keep thinking about how my dad & his wife's house got robbed twice when they first moved into their house. And now we just moved into a new house & this happened. It's just too much. It just makes my head spin. I don't like to think about it at all but I just can't help it.

Tonight I'm letting Victoria sleep with me. I'm worried something might happen in the night so I'd rather have her by my side. Even mom is on extra precaution. When I came home from work tonight, she was sitting in the living room waiting for me. She never does that. I can tell she's worried just as much as I am, if not more.

We need to change all the locks in the house. The sooner the better. Until then, I won't be getting any sleep at night. It's bad enough spending my nights tossing & turning wishing you were here. Now I'll be tossing & turning in fear of what the night will bring.

I miss you a lot. I'd feel a lot safer if you were here.